[He feels like a hypocrite for even opening his mouth. How can he be angry at her for this when he turned around and did the same thing not long after? Jack thinks he understands why she did it a little better now that he's done it himself, but it doesn't change how much it hurt in the first place.
After spending years pretending like there was still something to salvage between him and Gabriel (despite very little effort on his part to actually fix things--he'd always told himself he'd get to it at the right time), Ana's disappearance had spelled the beginning of the end. The two of them couldn't hold it together without her, and he thinks that she knew that. If she didn't, she certainly realized.
Jack has always been, in many ways, inherently selfish. His feelings. His mission. His war. There's a self-awareness in it that knows he's dragging Ana along for the ride, and that she deserves so much better than what he can give her at this point in their lives. At the same time, now that he's found her, he can't possibly be without her again, even if that means dragging her down with him. Jack thinks he hates that about himself most of all.
So despite the fact that he knows he has no right to ask this of her, he does it anyway, because he needs to know.]
Can you tell me why?
[He tries to relax under her touch, and knowing that this is going to be as difficult for her as it is for him, he moves a hand to put on top of hers, trying to be reassuring but not sure if he remembers how.]
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After spending years pretending like there was still something to salvage between him and Gabriel (despite very little effort on his part to actually fix things--he'd always told himself he'd get to it at the right time), Ana's disappearance had spelled the beginning of the end. The two of them couldn't hold it together without her, and he thinks that she knew that. If she didn't, she certainly realized.
Jack has always been, in many ways, inherently selfish. His feelings. His mission. His war. There's a self-awareness in it that knows he's dragging Ana along for the ride, and that she deserves so much better than what he can give her at this point in their lives. At the same time, now that he's found her, he can't possibly be without her again, even if that means dragging her down with him. Jack thinks he hates that about himself most of all.
So despite the fact that he knows he has no right to ask this of her, he does it anyway, because he needs to know.]
Can you tell me why?
[He tries to relax under her touch, and knowing that this is going to be as difficult for her as it is for him, he moves a hand to put on top of hers, trying to be reassuring but not sure if he remembers how.]